Deployed!

Today isn't a great day. The Soldier has been deployed, and I am terrified. Terrified of where he will soon be, of his well-being and safety, terrified of managing two small children all on my own. I know we all will survive this.

He is excited. As they say - this is what they train for. Doesn't mean I have to like it. I have been trying to be upbeat and supportive through the run up to the goodbye, and quite frankly I am exhausted. Now I have time for tears, and worries, and for being cranky about it all. All the emotions I have kept in check in the last two weeks can now come out.

I know we will be alright - I will manage on the homefront and he will manage 'over there'. It is not like we haven't done this before. This is our third deployment together - his fourth. We have coped in the past and we will do the same this time around.

Noo is old enough this time to understand that her father has gone away. She has been acting out and misbehaving ever since we told her. That is normal, and she should settle down.

We are going to survive!

In happier and knitting news, I have a sock! Only one and I haven't cast on for the other yet, but I will. I enjoyed the simple pattern. It is for Noo and she loves it.